Still waiting...

So, this weekend he come close to jumping on board. Or, at least closer than he has in a very long time. It was fun, playful, and exhilirating all at once. It is rather sad that it takes so little to do so much for me these days.
I am super stoked about a little appointment I had yesterday. I have high hopes that this will bring wonderful things my way. :)
I started casting out the warnings last night to him. I just want him to know that he is not going to start doing things differently when the changes are in place and expect to get away with it. It is time for me to take a step back and look at the big picture before making any moves.
More to come...

Amusement Park Heart

Lately I have been riding an emotional roller coaster. Too much happening in my life too quickly to remain in a constant state of anything other than bewilderment. Overall, I am happy with the way things are going.
He is still around. It is so confusing because I feel like he jumps on board with me every now and then with things but just as it starts to go somewhere interesting he quickly puts things in reverse.?? Why must boys be so silly!!!
Hopefully sometime soon he will realize what he has been missing and get his shiznit together enough to do something about it...

Frustration!

In a funk once again...
he does not understand, but that is to be expected, right?
We have been here so many times over the years that it is almost funny now when it happens.
I experience deja vu every time the "talks" begin. All of the words have been spoken many times. Things change for a little while then go right back to the way they were.
Sucks to be here.